I feel like for the past couple of months I have been in a change phase of life. There have been many changes for me, and for once I’ve embraced it. I think as humans we all innately fear change because it takes us out of our comfort zone. Living with a child with muscular dystrophy makes me, and my family, fear change even more – change can make Harry fearful, and it can also mean disease progression.
My life often feels safe and comfortable, but my needs change over time. I was talking to someone the other day about taking my therapy dog to the hospital, and they exclaimed, “HOW do you have time for all of this??”. The honest answer is that I don’t, and I’ve often spread myself very thin to do all of the things I like to do and all of the things I am used to doing. Don’t get me wrong – I am still doing things I like to do, but those activities are changing. I’m refocusing and cleaning up life to make sure that the important stuff gets the most time and attention.
What I deem important changes, too. Obviously I’ve always put my family first, but I really have solidified that lately. If I could spend 90% of my time with them, I would. My hubs and Harry are my sun and moon. They make my world go ’round. Sure, I need me time, and I make sure to get that time, but time spent together as this nuclear unit is everything.
Often at the gym I hear the phrase: “If it doesn’t challenge you, it doesn’t change you”, and I’m not sure I’ve ever heard truer words. Change and challenge push you toward new and exciting things; we certainly don’t get there by sitting around and waiting for it. It certainly doesn’t call for constant challenge and change, either. We need to create some calm and enjoy the stillness once in a while. I think the moral of my babbling here is that I am changing, and that’s fine with me. See you guys on the flip side!